Whoever said.....

Whoever said love is easy, has never been in love before,
Whoever said love needs no sacrifices, has always taken and never given back,
Whoever said love needs no searching, is obviously one of the very few lucky ones who got it right the first time,
Whoever said love doesn't hurt, had never been in love before.

Epiphany Over a Cup of Coffee

I sat in the dark, all alone at the corner of my bed. Looking for the darkest spot possible. Hoping for an epiphany.

For the past few months, I have been asking myself the same question.
"Am I living life right?"

Why do I ask this question? Well, the past 6 months have been filled with ups and downs, as usual. However, no matter how good the "ups" were, the downs never fail to completely destroy the joy.

I have been trying to be a better person, son, boyfriend and employee. But nothing seems to work, nothing seems to impress anyone, and nothing seems to please anyone. Constantly, I have been reminded what a failure I am. By everyone. In every way.

Sometimes, I feel that a person can only do so much. I've reached a point where I really don't know what to do anymore to make people understand my actions and efforts. I'm no longer the confident, charming person I was before, instead I have been battered so much I no longer know who I am and have become. I've reached a point where I really can't do anymore and will just live my life as it is, as I want to. This may seem very selfish, but I think have done a lot for those around me without expecting anything back (Note to self: must do more parents) and have been neglecting MY needs a little.

I've decided. No more bending backwards, forwards and sideways to accommodate others. I'll just be the wacky blackie I've always been. I'm BACK.

Roar!!!

Just replaced my exhaust pipe recently cuz I desperately needed the top-end punch. Driving a 1.3L Manual, it kinda sucks when it takes 10 mins to get from 110km/h to 140km/h.

With the original 4-1 extractor replaced with a 4-2-1, and racing muffler installed, it takes me substantially less time to hit 170km/h. Best of all, now it sounds like this........

The Irony of Life....

I'm sure many of us were not born with a silver spoon in our mouths.

For those who have worked their assess off to get to where they are today, I'm sure you can relate.

For years now, I have been pushing and pushing and have been in constant search of money making avenues. Just to make my life a little more comfortable, I have taken on various odd jobs to earn the little extra pocket money.

I have come to a point in life where I know my potential, and others know it too. And I, at this point of life, can safely say that I am comfortable.....for the time being. However, what's ironic is that in the past few months, I have pushed myself so hard that:

a) I have so many opportunities that I am overwhelmed.

b) Been so busy that I am finding it too stressful to keep up

Conclusion: No money, stressed out. Money in, stressed out also.

Finally, what I find ironic is that when I was broke I dream of going on a holiday. Now that I can afford one, I don't have the time to, and am still dreaming of one.......sigh..

My My, I Wonder Why....

Have you ever wondered why cats lying in the middle of the road freeze when they see your car coming towards them? I have.....and this is what I think happens.....

Cats lying on the road are usually in slumber mode. Till they hear or sense your car speeding down the road towards them. They turn to look, perhaps to see what's bothering their sleep, and their eyes are like this:

Then your headlamps shine right into their eyes, so they see......

And that turns their eyes to this:

So essentially, they see nothing but bright lights. So, my theory is, they actually pause and wonder.........if they were dead and heading to cat heaven. Or, merely just counting if they have used up their 9 lives and their time is due......Perhaps?